At some point I think we all question our sexuality. More so when you have the hottest friends on earth and they become your closest persons. Since it's pride month I'll be sharing my personal journey on my sexuality up to this day. So, you know when you look back after all those years to the things you used to think or do and you think to yourself 'damn that was major LGBTQ vibes'. Well, That is how I often conclude my long walk down memory lane. I remember being a pre-school student and having a platonic friendship with both a girl and a boy who were cousins so they looked a lot a like ( I was 5,imagine wtf). Also,through primary school epochs I loved going to my dad's upper division classes to see the older girls he taught (he's a teacher) and to be spoiled by both the dudes and the girls since they all taught I was 'cute' around the age of 6(but who isn't). During primary school through std 1 to std 6 is where the struggle with self love begins or at least for me it goes way back to that point. Now I see it was the social impact that we all grew prisoners of, trying to force us into the norms of trying to compare yourself with other females and trying to 'attract the guys' because well, that was 'how it's supposed to be'. Ofcourse at first that mindset about being in a relationship wasn't there until a new student went into school and basically started to attract all the boys in the class. So I spent a lot of time trying to prove that I could have the guys fall for me just to feel I was pretty. Nevertheless I ignored the major crushes I had on the girls older than me at my school, and I did have a crush on one or two boys, my age and in my class. I used to be the teen who hated skirts more than anything so when it became a habit to wear jeans with a blue polo shirt since that was the school uniform color (blue) nobody even stopped me from doing so until graduation lol (that was so gay). So then I start highschool and again I'm chained by the societal norms of having a boyfriend because everybody had one. I dated 3 different guys through the four years of highschool one each form ofc I was never a cheater. During that period of time I barely used social media other than facebook and was more absorbed by the 'love' for my ex's, so much that my delusional self boxed my feelings towards girls and I never gave so much taught into the topic, also you barely heard about the LGBTQ community. (Will continue my life story in another chapter lol)
